One of My Oddest Flings

A few years ago I started dating this man Dr. Y on his first year out of residency, very smart man and cute as a button with dark hair and dark eyes and good hair....you know the kind you just want to run your fingers through dark and soft longer on the top and front so he could style it.

Dr. Y, was 35 never married, no kids, and still lived with his mother...ok well his mom lived with him technically, but still you get the concept....There was obviously something wrong with this man !

Single and gorgeous, a 35 yr old never married doctor with no kids, asked me out in the hallway at work! Of course I said YES!

Oh I quickly found out why he was still single. He was very attentive and sweet, but the man had some issues. So I was thinking it could probably over look somethings....not everything!

First of all he had a foot fetish, ok I can deal with that since I love my feet getting massaged, touched, rubbed and such. So that one wasn't bad at all.

Second, he was OCD about his routine. He only took certain roads and he always took the same route. He always left work everyday and had to go to Best Buy to buy something...no joke he would buy something everyday. Usually something electronic of something that goes with or on or in something electronic.

Third one was way worse he had an anxiety disorder, yes a doctor with anxiety about crowds and people! It was July 4th and I was all dressed up to go out somewhere when he called and me to see if I wanted to come keep him company and go out to dinner, I said sure. I went to his place and he says , "why don't we just stay in tonight", I say No I didn't shave my legs put on a mini skirt and fix my hair and makeup for sitting at home. Then he said well a friend of mine is having a cook out and fireworks show at his lake house, do you think you'd like to go? Sure, so we head that way.....

When we arrived there were already four people there and the two of us made it six and I could see his face changes with the thought of more people showing up. Then two more, then two more......Here goes the attack...started with a nose bleed, then a shortness of breath, and a full panic attack because too many people were there .......

I can deal with and over look many things but I'm no hermit...I need social events just to vent sometimes, even if its just to go window shopping. I like to get out and walk downtown and look at the old buildings, the architecture elements and angles of them are beautiful. He couldn't even do that for fear that too many people might get too close. Seriously!

I did tell him, your a doctor don't you know they make medicine for those kind of issues. He wasn't amused but I was right! Well that relationship didn't last very long at all...we are still friends though but we never go out he always insist on cooking me dinner, which isn't a bad thing since he is a good cook.

Since then he has bought his mom her own place and no lives alone with all his techno computer gadgets and things. Still single and still texts me but I let him know that I have found a man and I have fallen in love.

A Look Back At A Creepy Jerk!

A few years ago a cocky skinny tall descent looking man (3yr gyno resident) walked into our department and began talking to me about one of his patients. My younger co-worker H was so in "awe" over him, I just didn't see it, I guess! Once he was satisfied with the patient information, he asked about my status.....really?....we are at work and I'm not interested! So I politely brush him off and sent him on his way.

A few days later he returned when I wasn't working to inquire about me. My friend and younger co-worker H still in "awe" was all jealous over him, but she tells him I'll be back in a few days and he can find me then. Sure enough he came back. Ugh I know I told him in English that I wasn't interested so why is he here again? So he was standing in my office telling me why I should accept a date from him, all while H was drooling over his shoulder and trying to get his attention. He finally talked me into a drink after work just to talk and see how it goes...(I knew how it would go, I wasn't into him).....

He picked me up after work, took me to a little Mexican restaurant with a live band and we sat down at the bar. I asked him a few questions while drinking my drink and didn't like any of the answers, of course. I finished my drink and asked him to take me back to my car. I thanked him for the drink and went on my way.

So he came back around our department but not to see me, he was hovering over H and seeing what she wanted. She wanted a relationship....well that wasn't his style.....he dragged her along for awhile pretending to like her, all while being a jerk and a major ass to her...

then one day out of the blue about about six months since he talked to me I got an "unavailable" call it was from him.......He said hi this BA and I said ok what do you want....he said I was talking to my best friend and was telling him about you and told him that I took you out and then never called you and he said that I was being rude and that I should call and apologize to you because I wouldn't have liked to have been treated that way by you. . . . . .I said "what"? ...."look I am not interested and I never was and I haven't even thought about it since then, you don't for any reason owe me an explanation or an apology. We aren't compatible so we went our separate ways. ..............Then there was silence ........He then said so can I take you out to make up for being rude to you........NO.......I'm not interested! Ok then well don't tell H that I called you please.............Whatever dude.....grow up. BA was 38 at the time and H was 23, he had been married and divorced and had 3 kids he didn't see but one weekend a month if that and he talked down about his kids mom....I was so telling her what I thought about this creep, but it didn't matter she was inf actuated with him.......ewe! Why?

Why do guy's act like that ? Why are there women out there who can't see through that? Does it come with age, our intuition about a creepy jerk? I wish younger women would have the balls to tell off jerks like that!

My No Special Occasion Night

There was no special occasion last night, but it was such a wonderfully special night! D called and wanted to know if I could come over after work and of course I said YES!

On my way over there he texted me to say "when you get here there is a surprise on the door, take it off and go back to your car then call me form the car". So I drove over after work and taped to the door of his home was a card that was perfect and sweet and just fit us, I did as instructed and read it in the car. Then called and him and he met me at the door.

He opened the door and looked so damn yummy, I wanted to attack him right that second. He was wearing his new birthday shirt I had bought him and the entire place was lit by candle light. I swear there were 30 or more candles in his place, it was so damn romantic!

He said have a seat on the floor, he had set out a nice candle light setting on the coffee table and so I sat down as he served me spaghetti and meatballs with salad and garlic bread. Before he sat down he pressed play on the dvd player and guess what was playing....Lady and The Tramp! Yes see how romantic and cheesy he is! GOD I love him!

We ate by candle light and watched the ever so cutesy movie! Then as he cleaned up I went to shower. When I got out of the shower he had the bed room lit by candles and asked me to lay across the bed naked and proceeded to give me a full body massage from my head to my toes. He lotioned every inch of my body with his hands. All the way down to my toes and across to every one of my fingers.

I was so damn relaxed when he got finished with my full body massage I sat up and laid him back down as I kissed him from head to toe. Making sure to show special attention to his manhood. Wrapping my lips around his hardness, sliding my lips down his shaft, engulfing him and feeling his heat on my tongue. As he was moaning with pleasure while I was licking and sucking his every inch of manhood, he said please let me inside you, please, please.......

So we changed positions as he is looking into my eyes telling me how beautiful I am and how sexy I am. I couldn't describe to you how very sexy and hot and desirable he is to me. I thought as I felt him enter into my wetness that I would explode that very second, it took my breath away. I could feel his every inch as he was getting into a rhythm and getting faster with every stroke. I felt his sweat dripping slowly down his chest on to mine and we were sliding across each others body in a beautiful rhythmic motion till we both are breathing so deeply trying to catch our breaths till point of climax over whelmed us both into motionless heaps of hot sweaty bodies breathing so hard that you could see our chests rising and hear our heart pounding in our heads.

I am so in love with this man! We have awesome passion and love and lust and desire!

I Love Him!

I have the most amazing week ever! Thursday was D's birthday, so after dropping my youngest off at school I drove to his place. He lives 55 miles from me in another state, but so worth the drive!
I showed up with gift bag in hand. I bought him a button down Alabama embroidered dress shirt and five packs of gum (he quit dipping 10 days ago), and of course a nice sweet birthday day card. He opened his gift and was delighted that I had gotten him something. So still nervous about moving this relationship to the next level, I straddled him on the couch and began kissing him. Then suggested that we head upstairs and he show me his bedroom. That was the first day I had ever been to his place, every other time he had drove to see me. So yes we went upstairs and undressed each other, and revealed our passion for each other. It was amazing!

We then got up and went to Cracker Barrel for breakfast with the biggest, sweetest smiles on our faces ever! After breakfast we drove by the Harley dealership to window shop and just walk around holding hands. (are you rolling your eyes yet?) We then left there and walked around the mall hand in hand with the biggest smiles on our faces! I am so in love with this man!

Back at his place we took a short nap then more awesome sex, then a shower, before his daughter got off the bus from school. We then all went out to dinner, where he told me I had given him the best birthday ever and that he loves me and couldn't see his life without me! I wanted to melt right there! (I bet your rolling your eyes now..lol)....Yes I am smitten, and so in love with this man. I never knew I could love someone this much!

So this is going to have to be two blog posts because you couldn't have imagined the night I had last night with D! To Be Continued...........

My Weight Issues

My struggles with weight began when I gave birth to my first son at age 16. I weighed 109 at my first visit to the doctor at age 16 when I first found out I was pregnant. Ever since then I just sort of took it as it came....
After my second divorce at 29 I joined the gym in town. I needed to find myself again and find the strong woman that I knew I was! At 30 I was in the best physical shape of my life, and now at 35 I find myself struggling again.
I was never one to weigh myself...I never thought that the number on the scale quite told the entire story of my health or my body type....I am very curvy and just because I weigh more than someone else doesn't mean, I am not as well fitted in my clothes...
So I joined the gym again a few weeks ago, and I love it! I love feeling my body tone up and see the results happen before my eyes. I have lost 8 lbs in 8 weeks. It's not the speediest process but it works and more importantly I feel better. I have always been comfortable in my skin....even at my heaviest weight of 162 I rocked a string bikini. Oh yes I did! I did it quite well also! My curves hid my rolls...lol You see I have a love of food...I love all food. As Queen Latifah put it "I'm not one of those salad eating chics"
So now I'm 154 and feeling much better! I still have a little ways to go but I will make it!
My goal is to be 145 by Christmas! Yes I can do this! I want to be at my best when i meet D's parents and family at Christmas. It's crazy that I want to be better for him, but I do! He thinks I'm crazy because he likes me just the way I am, which is so sweet, but this isn't about him, its about me! I can do this I AM A STRONG WOMAN!

Did You Know?

A few things you don't know about me.

1. I am terrified of spiders, scary stuff (everything scary,movies,books,people,things), and thunderstorms (because I grew up in FL and lived through several tornadoes and a few hurricanes).


2. I have never had a wedding (even though I've been married twice) or been to prom with anyone!


3. I loathe stupid people! I just don't understand how they are make it through life without "common sense"!


4. I love pedicures! I love for my feet to be pretty and my toes to be painted pink!


5. I love my toes to be polished but I can't stand my fingernails to be painted (it makes my fingers feel heavy, I know it sounds silly but it does!)


6. Growing up I always thought I'd go to college to become a Lawyer


7. It took my 11 years to get my associates degree (off and on while being a mom to four kids and working two jobs) and only 18 months to get my bachelors.


8. I grew up white trash but I have never let it define what I do or who I am (even though I was a teen-mom)


9. I don't have "daddy issues" (even though my current boyfriend D has the same name as my father, weird huh!)


10. My youngest sister is my very best friend and I couldn't live without her!

A few things I want to do in life....

1. I want to spend a week or two in Bora-Bora in one of those over the water bungalows.


2. I want to learn how to drive and buy my own motorcycle.


3. I want to own a house on the beach that also has a pool.


4. I want my eyeliner tattooed on (I don't have any tattoos but I want my eyeliner tattooed on )


5. I want to run a marathon one day.


6. I want to go to Mackinac Island and spend the week without technology.


7. I want to go to the Grand Canyon


8. I want to visit Niagara Falls


9. I want to have season tickets to all the Alabama football games! (I love Bama football I am a true fan, win or lose I love them)


10. I want to write a book about my life. (and maybe a few articles for playboy/girl...lol)

Ugh! Mother Nature Tryed To Kill Me !

This morning I woke up to find that mother nature has dropped in for her monthly visit. Not my favorite visitor however I am use to her so I know the drill. Only one problem, I'm at work .....and .......you guessed it I have only one tampon. I know you guys out there wonder why we aren't always prepared for this since we do know it's coming, right? Well I don't have an answer for that other than I could buy a semi-truck load of tampons and they would be all used by the time mother nature decides to depart.

So anyway, I had to leave work this morning and head to the nearest store. I was thinking Walmart (the devil) but then my co-worker says go two blocks past the hospital on the same road and there is a Dollar store on the right. Sounded easy enough, right?

A little background information, I don't live in this town I live thirty miles down the freeway in a one-horse town. So imagine my surprise when I leave downtown and end up two blocks down in the middle of the ghetto!

Yes I'm serious. So sure enough I see the dollar store on my right and I pull in to a completely gated parking lot surrounded by a 10 foot high iron rod fence! Yes a gated dollar store. Then look up to see all the windows and doors have bars on them and there are cameras on every centimeter of this place. WHF

So this is not the time to be picky, especially since I have left work and I am in desperate need of some tampons! So I hop out of my car and immediately lock the doors and walk briskly to the door past the three thugs standing on the sidewalk with sunglasses on (it's raining and stormy and dark outside btw).

I open the door and this voice from overhead called out and it scared me SLIGHTLY lol to a jump. It was a recording with an alarm "WARNING......all actions are monitored and recorded" ! REALLY at a dollar store! A dollar store people, is it really necessary to scare the Jesus out of me at the dollar store? I only went to get tampons I wasn't prepared for a cavity search or to be shanked!

WOW this definitely makes me glad I live in a one-horse town.

I did make it back to work safely with my tampons!

That Little Bastard Cupid

D is amazing, almost surreal. He is 35 and will be 36 on Thursday. He is in good shape and loves life. He use to be a soccer player, a ballroom dance instructor, and he still surfs! He is educated, smart, funny, and very sexy! He is a single dad of a ten year old daughter that he has had full custody of since his divorce 9 years ago. He has a great job and a truck. I swear I couldn't have dreamed him up any better..cheesy huh!

I know already....I am being the cheesiest person ever about this man and the great thing is he is doing the same thing at the same time!

I always said "no one feels the same way you feel about them at the same time" ,well if I was right, please do NOT wake me or pinch me!

Usually at this point in a new relationship if the man brought up the relationship talk I would be running, not walking, but in a full blown run in the opposite direction. So why am I not running from this man? We have had a few conversations about us being exclusive and it doesn't frighten me at all.....I'm serious I am a commitment phobia person!

There is something that is so right about this man! I have not seen not one flag! Usually by now I've found 20 or so things I'm not sure about, that I have to ponder over, or just plain can't get over either way I am usually one foot,or both feet out the door by now!

So this week, face to face we are having the relationship/commitment conversation and I'm smiling about it! What the hell is wrong with me!

I was perfectly happy being single, I love the single life! So why can I not see myself without this man now! I think that little bastard cupid snuck up behind us while we were too busy staring at each other and shot us with those damn tiny arrows of his!

I Can't Stop Smiling!

I literally can't stop smiling! I am generally a smiley person, but this week has been wonderful! I have been talking to D.

We went on a nice dinner date on Tuesday night where we literally couldn't stop talking, touching, or smiling. In fact we sat there in the restaurant till the staff had put up all the chairs and the manager came out to politely tell us that we didn't have to go home but we couldn't stay there...lol

What the hell has come over me! Let me start by saying first this week started off like this....for the first time in over 5 years I turned T down for sex! OMG I didn't even think about it I just did it, I told him no.

Then after the dinner and conversation on Tuesday he asked if I'd like to have dinner with his parents next week for his birthday (which I have already gotten him a gift for..shhhh)! I didn't even hesitate to say yes I would love to.

What the hell has gotten into me...I think I have been possessed by some giddy smiley teenager!

Then he says "want to take the kids to dinner and a movie this week?". Again I said yes!

So tonight we met at dinner with my 12 year old son and his 10 year daughter. We had a nice dinner and everyone got along great. Then we went to the theater to see the new Disney movie Tangled, which was great! After the movies we stopped by the game room for the kids to play arcade games and where we played a game of air hockey and he beat me badly, only because I couldn't stop laughing! (OK he beat me fairly lol) .

After the dinner and a movie and games, his daughter and I decided that we should all go for ice cream. Secretly it was my plan to offer it so that I could spend more time with him :) OMG what is wrong with me! So we all go get ice cream (which totally screwed up my week I spent at the gym this week ....lol) and sit for another 45 minutes laughing and talking.

Unfortunately both the kids have to go to school in the morning, so being the responsible parents we are, we called it a night!

Wow, I can't recall ever feeling this way this fast about anyone, especially anyone that returned the feelings. I only remember having this feeling for T after our first date over 5 years ago and he quickly shot it down! I am totally in unmarked territory! I am freaking out! I haven't even had sex with him yet! I don't want to screw this up! I screw everything up!

Why now?
Why him?
I wasn't looking!
I was happy being single!
OMG!
Someone stop me from smiling my cheeks hurt!