Monday, December 2, 2013

Is My Wart/Diamond Showing?

Let me start at the beginning. I have been a mother, more than half the time I have been alive! I was an offspring of a dysfunctional family and ended up being a statistic in the world of teenage moms and obsolete fathers.

I find myself speechless on so many levels lately.

 My life has so many turns and corners and crevasses.

I was accepted into a graduate program of a very prestigious christian college! Now anyone that reads my back ground knows I am not a very religious person.

I do believe in GOD and Jesus and a lot of religiously complicated things. However everyone always wants to know what religion I am. That brings me into a VERY long conversation, about not growing up in a religious family and finding my own way through my adult world sipping a little Kool-Aid here and there of all religions.

So as excited that I am to be pursuing my Masters Degree in an excellent school I'm just as nervous that my dysfunctional  "wart" will pop up and I will be thrown out into the street by my shirt tail. Can they do that? Can the President of the school come to me one day and simply say "You are not worthy" and have me removed from his school?

Don't get me wrong I am not saying I'm broken because I was a product of and then became a teenage mom. I'm simply saying I am human and God has a purpose for me , like he does everyone.

 However not everyone accepts flaws and accepts when the poorer of poor become as good as the always privileged have been. Not so often people are not fond of the "diamond in the rough" . I was coerced into seeing the Hunger Games Movies last week and it reminded me of this very thought!

I do plan attending this invite and pursuing my education, it is a driving force in my life to be a career student!
So here's to letting my Wart/Diamond shine!