Devastated In Marital Bliss?

I don’t know this man I married!  My life has turned upside down! I am so hurt, heart broken, mad, frustrated, and overwhelmed right now. I can’t understand my own thoughts. I am flipping back and forth from devastation to antagonism and repugnance. I feel as if someone hijacked my life and head and left me in this terrible state of mind.

Less than 3 weeks ago on Tuesday Oct 8^th, my husband of 1 year and 3 months had an affair! I am overwhelmed just thinking about it. I am and have been physically ill since then with the thoughts that my husband stuck his dick into a stranger, without a condom!

My initial reaction was anger. How could he have done this to me? How did this happen to me? Why did it happen to me? I just don’t understand. I can’t wrap my thoughts around the man I thought I’d spend the rest of my life with, having sexual relations with another person.

Now he would try to argue the fact that it wasn’t an affair it was only a one night stand. It doesn’t matter what you call it, he was unfaithful. He likes to say we had an “indiscretion” in our marriage because of him. I want to scream at him, “indiscretion my ass, you FUCKED someone else other than your wife, I don’t care how you sugar coat it!

You might be thinking how do I know, or how did I find out?

 Well let me begin the story from the Sunday the 6^th. The kids went to their grandparents’ house for fall break, I worked all weekend and Sunday was the last night I had with him before I went out of town to see my sisters for a week of sisterly fun at the beach. I got off work I came home and he wanted to take me out to dinner. So we went to Appleby’s for a bite to eat and a couple drinks. Then the next morning I got up and drove the 6 hours to my sister’s house.

Monday was good I got to my sister’s at noon her time and I picked her up and we went out to lunch then picked up my nephews from school, made dinner and drank a bottle of wine. Tuesday my youngest sister and I took the kids to school, and then we headed to the beach all alone for the entire day. It was beautiful and relaxing. We went to lunch, hung out till dinner time then went home grilled out and drank a bottle of wine. Talked to my husband several time during all this. The usual, “when will you be home, I miss you, I love you” ….blah blah …. Wednesday we went to my older sisters’ house then shopping at the outlet center and lunch and dinner out then home to drink a bottle wine. Thursday we got up went to the mall and hung out shopping all day and eating lunch and just enjoying out last day together till next year, we did NOT drink a bottle of wine this night; I needed water!

Friday morning earlier than planned, I left to go home at 2:45 am! I was excited to be on my way to see my sexy husband and slip into a new lingerie outfit I bought. So two hours earlier than he had anticipated I pulled into my driveway, his car wasn’t home. I rushed in slipped into my batgirl outfit from head to toe, the black and yellow corset the black garter belt with thigh high sheer black stockings attached, with matching yellow string tied g- string with my knee high black leather boots on…..threw some makeup on and done my hair in a sexy tossed way, with some nice juicy red lipstick on!

I did all this, with no sight of him at all. So I tried to call him and beside the bed, his phone was ringing! So I pick it up, and on the screen it says “new text message”. So I open it, to my dismay it said…” thank you for the hookup and if you would like to try it again with a little less alcohol next time give me a call.”

Now picture this I am standing in my bedroom in a head to toe leather batgirl outfit with my husband phone in my hand when he walks in! Yes I’m very serious!

I call the girl, she is positive that she didn’t send the text to the wrong number. I am furious!

This girl talks to me and tells me every detail of their “indiscretion”! How he followed her from one bar to the next and was buying her drinks, wrote his name and number down for her, telling her he was divorced and his teenage daughter lived with her mom, wasn’t wearing his wedding ring. Then he followed her home and they fucked WITHOUT a condom, and he stayed the night and left on Wednesday morning.

This girl is not pretty, she isn’t even cute. She is not someone you would take home to your mom or be proud to show her off. She is fat and ugly with a butch hair cut and just looks dirty. I know this because she sent him a picture!

I just don’t understand why. You would think that if a man has an affair he would make sure it would be with someone worth loosing his wife, family, life, home and breaking his marriage vows for. Trust me she wasn’t that girl!

I just don’t know what I am going to do. Overwhelmed with feelings!