I don’t know this man I married! My life has turned upside down! I am so hurt,
heart broken, mad, frustrated, and overwhelmed right now. I can’t understand my
own thoughts. I am flipping back and forth from devastation to antagonism and
repugnance. I feel as if someone hijacked my life and head and left me in this
terrible state of mind.
Less than 3 weeks ago on Tuesday Oct 8th, my
husband of 1 year and 3 months had an affair! I am overwhelmed just thinking
about it. I am and have been physically ill since then with the thoughts that
my husband stuck his dick into a stranger, without a condom!
My initial reaction was anger. How could he have done this
to me? How did this happen to me? Why did it happen to me? I just don’t
understand. I can’t wrap my thoughts around the man I thought I’d spend the
rest of my life with, having sexual relations with another person.
Now he would try to argue the fact that it wasn’t an affair
it was only a one night stand. It doesn’t matter what you call it, he was
unfaithful. He likes to say we had an “indiscretion” in our marriage because of
him. I want to scream at him, “indiscretion my ass, you FUCKED someone else
other than your wife, I don’t care how you sugar coat it!
You might be thinking how do I know, or how did I find out?
Well let me begin the
story from the Sunday the 6th. The kids went to their grandparents’
house for fall break, I worked all weekend and Sunday was the last night I had
with him before I went out of town to see my sisters for a week of sisterly fun
at the beach. I got off work I came home and he wanted to take me out to
dinner. So we went to Appleby’s for a bite to eat and a couple drinks. Then the
next morning I got up and drove the 6 hours to my sister’s house.
Monday was good I got to my sister’s at noon her time and I
picked her up and we went out to lunch then picked up my nephews from school, made
dinner and drank a bottle of wine. Tuesday my youngest sister and I took the
kids to school, and then we headed to the beach all alone for the entire day.
It was beautiful and relaxing. We went to lunch, hung out till dinner time then
went home grilled out and drank a bottle of wine. Talked to my husband several
time during all this. The usual, “when will you be home, I miss you, I love you”
….blah blah …. Wednesday we went to my older sisters’ house then shopping at
the outlet center and lunch and dinner out then home to drink a bottle wine.
Thursday we got up went to the mall and hung out shopping all day and eating
lunch and just enjoying out last day together till next year, we did NOT drink
a bottle of wine this night; I needed water!
Friday morning earlier than planned, I left to go home at
2:45 am! I was excited to be on my way to see my sexy husband and slip into a
new lingerie outfit I bought. So two hours earlier than he had anticipated I
pulled into my driveway, his car wasn’t home. I rushed in slipped into my
batgirl outfit from head to toe, the black and yellow corset the black garter
belt with thigh high sheer black stockings attached, with matching yellow
string tied g- string with my knee high black leather boots on…..threw some
makeup on and done my hair in a sexy tossed way, with some nice juicy red
lipstick on!
I did all this, with no sight of him at all. So I tried to
call him and beside the bed, his phone was ringing! So I pick it up, and on the
screen it says “new text message”. So I open it, to my dismay it said…” thank
you for the hookup and if you would like to try it again with a little less
alcohol next time give me a call.”
Now picture this I am standing in my bedroom in a head to
toe leather batgirl outfit with my husband phone in my hand when he walks in!
Yes I’m very serious!
I call the girl, she is positive that she didn’t send the
text to the wrong number. I am furious!
This girl talks to me and tells me every detail of their
“indiscretion”! How he followed her from one bar to the next and was buying her
drinks, wrote his name and number down for her, telling her he was divorced and
his teenage daughter lived with her mom, wasn’t wearing his wedding ring. Then
he followed her home and they fucked WITHOUT a condom, and he stayed the night
and left on Wednesday morning.
This girl is not pretty, she isn’t even cute. She is not
someone you would take home to your mom or be proud to show her off. She is fat
and ugly with a butch hair cut and just looks dirty. I know this because she
sent him a picture!
I just don’t understand why. You would think that if a man
has an affair he would make sure it would be with someone worth loosing his
wife, family, life, home and breaking his marriage vows for. Trust me she
wasn’t that girl!
I just don’t know what I am going to do. Overwhelmed with
feelings!
